My mom....

I have been thinking about my mother so much especially since I got pregnant. Tomorrow is her birthday and she would have been 52. I missed her so much when I got married and cried many many times but I definitely think I am missing her more now. All of my friends have amazing mothers who have been there for them with helping with their babies and it breaks my heart that I don't and won't ever have that. I have such wonderful friends and their mothers treat me like their own but I still wish I had mine. Everyone says that they can't imagine how they would have made it without their mothers coming to stay with them for a couple of weeks after the baby is born. Well, that isn't an option for me so I guess its me and Franz all the way. LOL I am pretty sure my mother made it just fine without anyone and I will do the same. I guess I am just very jealous of my friends and their relationships with their moms. I also have a hard time thinking about Austin never getting the chance to meet his grandmother. He will only see the few videos and pictures we have of her. He will be able to see that she was a wonderful person and probably be able to tell how much his mommy is like her mommy. She was such a wonderful mom to me and Tyler the short time we had her but I am very blessed to have had the 6 years I did with her. I think about you every day, Mom and know that I will one day be with you again. Love you forever and always. 

A picture of my mom and me when I was born along with our dog Bandit. I can just imagine me holding Austin on the couch with Murphy on my legs just like this picture.  :)