Working on me...

Working on me has been a struggle for quite some time. I don't know why it is so hard to eat healthy and exercise on a daily basis. I have gained around 60 + pounds since I graduated high school. I am embarrassed to even admit that. I know a lot of that has to do with my thyroid along with lack of exercise and not so good food. I LOVE pasta and I have pretty much taken that out of my life. I have changed my diet completely and started a new workout plan. Lindsey and I started the couch to 5k. Which basically trains you to be able to run a 5k. So far it is going good and I really think it is going to have a good outcome. It requires you to walk/run 3 times a week so I am doing different things on my days off from that. I feel so much better when I workout. I just hate waiting to see results. I wanna see them now since I am putting so much effort into it. That is mainly why I have given up so quick in the past. I am not going to give up this time. I WILL get to my goal weight and I WILL keep it up. I just have to keep telling myself. It helps having a friend to keep me going and encouraging me. 


On another note, I am working on me in other ways as well. Franz and I have been visiting Northside Methodist Church. We are really enjoying it and are considering joining there in the future. We feel comfortable there and already know several people. I know it will be a great place when we have children one day. One thing that I have been working on is grudges. A few Sundays ago, the message was about letting things go and not letting them bottle up in side of you. Give it to God and let him work it out for you. I have been working on grudges that I have with people that are in my life. One being my step mother. I feel that I will never forgive her and I truly hate her, but I know that isn't what God wants. I am letting the anger go which feels good. However I am still working on the rest. There are other things with a few people that have been in my life for a long time. I am forgiving them and letting the grudges go. I am proud. :) lol. It doesn't feel good to be angry at someone for a long time. It just gets worse and nothing good can come from that. 


So that is it for now I guess.. There have been a few issues that I don't even want to type/talk about. It isn't worth the breath or space on my blog. LOL. I will keep posting how I am doing on my weight loss.. Maybe that will be one more incentive to keep me going. :)  

A goal.. to look like this again. :)